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I just ordered sperm today. That’s a statement that I would have never imagined ever saying … wow!

I am turning the page to a whole new chapter in my life … one which has been in the works for over a year now.

I have wanted to share this news for a while (and have with a few close friends) but I have worried some about putting this out there and then not being able to see it through. My fear is that it won’t work. But I have decided to share my news and my journey as a step of faith.


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So, here it is … I will have my first IUI (IntraUterine Insemination) sometime this week using donor sperm. I’m single, 41 and going for what I’ve always wanted .. my own kids.

My own oily baby(ies)

Wait. Oily?

A year ago in April I joined Young Living Essential Oils as a distributor with my mentor health coach’s team. This has been one of the best decisions I’ve made – ever. Life changing. The healing power of the essential oils alone is amazing .. but combine that with the relationships and friends that I’ve gained as well as friendships renewed – I can hardly even describe how incredible this journey has been.

Shortly after joining YL, I was chatting with one of my new oily friends and in our conversation, she honed in on an area of my life that I had given up on. I was sad that I would never have my own kids … at 40 and still single, I just felt that there was no time and I was too old. What I didn’t know was, that she was a donor coordinator for a fertility clinic …. it was definitely a “divine appointment” type conversation. She encouraged me to follow my dream of having kids and assured me that I wasn’t too old and that I had many options.

As I began to think about the possibilities, I was very excited but also with that came a lot of fears that I had to work through.

The biggest fear was “what would people think? I’m single … I don’t want people thinking that I’m sleeping around…” The answer came .. it was really easy. It doesn’t matter what others think. I know what’s true. This decision is between me and God.

The next fear was “will my friends support me?” I started talking with my closest friends and found overwhelming support. I was pleasantly surprised. But I also came to the realization that with or without support, no one can keep me from my dreams except for myself. I realized that I want no regrets … no regrets of never trying and doing everything that I can to have my family.

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.  Live the life you imagined.” Thoreau
So I began taking steps toward my dream.

I joined an organization called Single Mothers by Choice and began reading stories of other women who have set out on their own to start their families. I joined up with a local group as well.

I visited with my gynecologist and she excitedly referred me to a reproductive endocrinologist (RE). I began learning about all of my options. The process isn’t cheap (and of course, not covered by health insurance).

I signed up for several sperm banks and started looking at donors.

I decided to get off the hormones I had been using and try to get my cycle on track without them. (I have a history of irregular cycles and dr in the past just prescribed hormones instead of trying to get to the root of issue). After a fertility cleanse and using Progessence Plus (from Young Living), my cycles started regulating.

So now, how do I pay for this?

In the fall, I started making small amounts of money from my Young Living commissions, so I decided to start putting those checks into my savings account. Baby money. As time passed, my commissions increased and so did the baby fund.

I began researching essential oils and other natural options to enhance fertility and started my own Facebook group dedicated to this information.

A month ago, my baby fund reached an amount where I was comfortable to begin. I chose a donor, contacted my RE and today I purchased my sperm. IUI will be at the end of this week or over the weekend.

And now I’m preparing myself. Nutrition, exercise, prayer, meditation and visualization with oils (one of my amazing Health Coach members created a beautiful visualization for me … if you want help with this, I will happily connect you to her!!). I even have a friend on standby for a raindrop treatment to help me relax and prepare.

I am so excited to begin writing this new chapter. I’m hoping for miracles. I’m well aware of the odds (no need to remind me) but I’m stepping out in faith and believing that this journey will be amazing. I am so grateful for the cheerleaders along the way.

This post is dedicated to my dear friends who introduced me to YL, coached and encouraged me along the way and inspired me to follow my dreams … I am grateful for all who have supported me but I want to name a few who I hold dear. I am also grateful for the amazing, healing oils that Young Living provides as well as the opportunity to share them with others AND realize my dreams!

Cynthia Henrich introduced me to YL oils. She started out as my health coach mentor but in the last 2 years that I have known her, she has become one of my dearest friends.

Kim Schultz-Ferrentino helped me to get started with YL and we quickly became amazing friends. She has been a constant source of encouragement and love.

Shanna Wahlquist is my dear friend who inspired me to follow this dream. We met when we both joined YL about the same time on Cynthia’s team. We started working on our YL businesses together as accountability partners and we call ourselves Team SASS.

And special thanks to Angel for the beautiful visualization and Elizabeth for the Raindrop treatment.

goconfidently-cropped~Chasing the dream…